Day off

I'm taking it easy today and finally sorting out my hair. I really need to finish it as I'm heartily sick of the half blonde scrappy thing I've had on my head since summer. I want it to be long black and straight with a fringe. A more polished image is needed. I know I always say that and it never happens , but I'm a bit sick of looking like a bag lady. Some new clothes would come in useful as well. I think I'll take advantage of the New Year's sales and invest in some new clothes. I also need to sort out my wardrobe as well. I did try , but doing laundry in my house is a bit of a drama, and I really do not need that.

I'm considering getting someone to cover one of my shifts at work. I suppose I'm just being well lazy but I just don't want to be there all the time. There has to be some balance which I feel is sorely lacking. No wonder it's taken me so long to sort essentials like my hair out when I feel like I roll out of bed to go to work, do a bit of writing and then fall back in to rinse and repeat. thing definitely have to change next year , and for the better. I want more work/life balance. I wouldn't mind so much if I was fulfilled and my career was going great guns, but let's face it, it's not. I'm pretty much stuck in what I know is a dead end job with people who don't respect me, and a constant lack of funds. I hate running out of cash a week into the pay cycle and thinking: 'Oh no, I have to starve for three weeks!'

I'm still slogging away on the Nano novel. I really must make an effort to finish some of my WIPs next year. I just wish more than anything I could get hold of a beta. I seem to have real problems establishing a long term relationship with someone reliable to help me. This is the second time someone has flaked out on me, and it's starting to worry me. Is my writing so appalling they can't be bothered? At the very least they should at least write to say they're not interested any more , instead of not replying any more for months on end. I feel like I'm staying up late sacrificing my time and energy and getting nothing back in return.

I haven't really bought any albums lately, lack of cash to be honest, but I really like Amberian Dawn who are a Finnish female fronted metal band with operatic vocals. They remind me Oceanborn era Nightwish but with very mythological based lyrics. Heidi Parvianen's voice is gorgeous. Love it.

Diablo Swing Orchestra are a bit eclectic and avant-garde but there's some great vocals.

The new Epica is very good, Simone Simons is improving by leaps and bounds every album. I remember hearing 'Consign to Oblivion' and finding her a bit hit and miss compared to Tarja who I utterly stanned at the time. But the last two albums have really impressed me. I'm going to have to invest as soon as I get some decent money. If only I didn't have to shell out £270 of my wages before I even see it!